Police and Funding

Police officers in America receive at best 24 hours of training per year. This is a startling statistic.

I write this article as a former military police soldier who spent 5 years on active duty.        

De-funding the police is a common theme in America today.  I would argue rather than de-fund the police America should overwhelmingly fund the police.  De-funding the police only brings about lack of training and bad hires. Psychological, intelligence and physical traits would suffer.

24 hours of additional training per year.

The average police officer receives an initial 6 months of training before they hit the streets.  This is comparable to the military’s military police corps.  The difference is the training received once the officer is sworn in.  Police officers in America receive at best 24 hours of training per year.  This is a startling statistic.  Military training works in cycles.  It is not uncommon for a military police soldier to spend months per year just training. 

A military police battalion charged with upholding law enforcement at a Fort is comprised of about 700-1000 soldiers.  Local police departments do not have the manpower or the funds to hire and train there officers. Substantial funding would be needed for police to receive the appropriate training on par with the military.

Being a police officer is the hardest job on the planet, especially in America. The amount of stress an officer is under day in and day out can certainly take an emotional toll. Police become desensitized to the world around them. Regular psychiatric evaluations should be required to make sure an officer is stable to perform his or her duties.  Being a police officer might not be a 20+ year career as some may not be able to undergo the psychological rigors of the job. 

College education

College education is important when looking at potential new hires.  Generally, you only need a HS diploma or GED to qualify. I argue a bachelor’s degree should be mandatory for new hires.  Why?  Not all police will make it 20 years; there should be away for officers to integrate into other fields of police support. 

Forget about a degree in law enforcement.  Degrees in social work, psychology or sociology may be a better fit.  These degrees are a solid foundation for an officer to build upon as they enter different stages in their career. Ongoing education should be a priority for every officer.  A master’s in social work or an MA in counseling would give the officer the ability to become a licensed therapist working with the department to perform non-patrol duties.

Policing is a community function of intimacy not an “us vs. them” mentality.

Just as there are nearly 1000 soldiers in a military police battalion not all perform police duties.  Local departments would have a wide range of experts to handle the day to day challenges of police work.  An officer could move into a more specialized role continuing their careers. These experienced specialists would be able to set the tone for new hires. Policing is a community function of intimacy not an “us vs. them” mentality.

Physical fitness and unarmed combat.

Former presidential candidate Andrew Yang suggested that a police officer should have at least a purple belt in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu (BJJ).  Police like the military would be subject to regular fitness along with hand to hand combat testing. Police must feel comfortable and confident without relying on their firearm.


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My Struggle: Anxiety

One day my heart will stop, one day I will no longer be alive. Should I dwell on what will happen in the future? Or should I focus on what is before me right now?

Panic attacks and anxiety that never goes away.  Generally, anxiety may last an hour or so, not mine.  I live in a constant state of anxiety with occasional panic attacks.  I have struggled with this for 15 years.  I probably first stated having panic attacks about 6 months outside of me finishing my term of service in the Army.  I went to the emergency room thinking I was having a heart attack.  Instead after a hefty dose of Valium I was told I had a severe panic attack and should consult my physician. 

15 Years Later

Now 15 years later not much has changed I still live in a continually anxious state with the occasional panic attack.  I do not like to ride in cars or be in places that I cannot control.  The doctor put me on benzos and anti-depressants.  I think they work; benzos are nice saving me trips to the ER.

I know all the drills; I practice many of them.  Daily meditation sometimes up to 30 minutes, I stay active, I try to eat healthy but until recently I could not put my finger on it.  I have concluded that I am afraid of death; more so I have (FOMO) fear of missing out.  But, missing out on what?  I have accomplished much in my life and honestly in 40 years I have done more than most.  Maybe it is just the selfish nature inside of me that thinks I want it all?  I heard a great quote during one of my many stints in rehab.  “Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.”

One day my heart will stop, one day I will no longer be alive.  Should I dwell on what will happen in the future? Or should I focus on what is before me right now?  The obvious answer is to be mindful and appreciate the right now.  Just for today I can accept my position in the Universe.  I may never get famous, make a lot of money, or marry a super model but I know I can eventually live anxiety free.  Not there yet but working on it. 

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Death of Christianity

It is time we confess as Christians that our foundations of American Christianity have been rooted in racism, manipulation and greed.

It is time we confess as Christians that our foundations of American Christianity has been rooted in racism, manipulation and greed. However the roots of evil have stemmed for much longer; 2000 years longer. Christianity as known by the Apostles died shortly after them with the establishment of the hierarchy of church offices. All are one body, the bishop is equal to the layman both changing roles as needed.

Permanent hierarchy leads to unchanged doctrines and dogma which do not advance with society. The power of the Church leads to greed and manipulation of the State. All this is evil. We must admit and ask for forgiveness for being apart of the actions we committed; even if done in ignorance. We must deconstruct and build based on love and the priesthood of all saints. We must repent for the countless lives lost, and untold wealth stolen away.

What is Done in the Dark Will be Seen in the Light

What is done in the dark will be seen in the light. The Church has openly conducted evil actions for all to see. However, if no one can see the actions, they remain in the dark. Now, now, is the time in which the scales are falling from the eyes. We stand naked in the garden without knowledge of our fate. We fear because we do not live by faith. Love is not found only the actions of the flesh.

We have worn the clothes of the profane for far too long, creating an institution of bondage rather than bringers of light. We celebrate the ressurection without understanding its purpose. We, as the Master spoke, have failed to see the logs in our eyes. It is time to repent for the actions done in the name of Christ.

Will You Repent With Me?

Will you repent with me? Will you say, I was wrong and love is right? Or, will you continue to deny your actions all the way to the throne of God? When that time comes you will realize heaven is meant to be on earth. Heaven is within the heart of the individual. When light comes no darkness is found. Here me now. Christianity is dead as we know it. We must correct what has been perverted and rebuild under the freedom of forgiveness.

The Kingdom the Power and the Glory Amen.

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What is Racist?

The world has gone 2+2=10 and we all clap. We cannot figure shit out while we are running around trying to dig up dirt on each other making sure we didn’t wear “black face” as a kid.

What is racist?  Was it racist then or now?  Who decides these things and why do we care?  I do not know.  If a person told me they never said something racist or offensive in their life I would look like they were a newborn baby, you would have to be for me to believe that shit. 

The world has gone 2+2=10 and we all clap. We cannot figure shit out while we are running around trying to dig up dirt on each other making sure we didn’t wear “black face” as a kid.  Fuck man, every kid I grew up with and especially you older folks would be straight canceled if someone would go through your Halloween pictures.

Canceling and getting mad and all the talking heads who want to tell us what to do, how to act, and when the Covid slowed down the protest started, the protest stop and Covid is back up.  Every 30 seconds it is breaking news. We live in a society of oversensitive, desensitized fucks.  Ignorance is certainly not bliss in this department.

“Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.”

I once heard something cool when going through one of my many stints in rehab.  “Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today.”  When I put those words in front of any situation the stress of the world for only a moment in time goes away.  I say it like a fucking mantra on the way to buy more alcohol, so I do not have to remember someones whiny ass shit on the internet.

Thank god for essential businesses like alcohol and weed.  I think the governors understood when they locked us down and broke the economy that we needed something.  Probably going to do another stint. 

Back to my point.  What is racist?  I still do not know.  These movements seem so ego driven.  The deeper I go inside, the more I realize nothing much matters.  I exist.  That is it, I exist.  Who knows, maybe that is white privilege.  I do not care, cannot help the way you were born, but now its almost a crime to make fun of others. 

White people talk about heritage huh? Heritage in what?  I mean none of us no matter what country you are from have great heritages to be proud of. All of our heritage is based in a bunch of power-hungry fucks trying to kill each other for the dumb shit title of king. 

Who is really the racist?

Who really is the racist? It is the ones with the money.  In fact, I would not even call them racist as they do not care what race you are from as long as you can work.  So, they give you this thing called money and we fight over it like buzzards on a dead skunk.  Backstab, manipulate, steal, murder, rob, all this because we need a nice size 401k before we die.  How long do you plan to live sir?  Do they ask a rich person that? Fuck no, they ask them how they want their estate divided up and what charity would you like to leave a portion.  Those bitches are the real slave masters of the 21st century.  Who is racist?  We all are, maybe if we take some time to get out of our ego driven selves, we can do something productive in this world.  Something good like chasing rabbits and tightrope walking.    

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Hope in the Wilderness

Opportunity is key in escaping difficult realities. Sometimes we must create our own opportunities and struggle with all we have until we emerge.

Felon, Homeless, Addict etc.

I have talked with hundreds of people who feel they are stuck walking in quicksand sinking deeper and deeper.  Stop, are you going to continue walking until the odds of escaping the mud are next to none?  Or, are you going to look for opportunities to escape?  Opportunity is key in escaping difficult realities.  Sometimes we must create our own opportunities and struggle with all we have until we emerge. You can find opportunity regardless of your situation.

Many of us who have a less than desirable past feel guilty and ashamed of our actions and the labels of felon, addict, homeless etc.  These are very real emotions as they are real labels that society feels are acceptable to lay upon us.  From the very start of your journey into a new life you must fight the system.  How do you fight the system?

Ask For Help

There are numerous agencies be it Goodwill’s and other non-profits that have programs to help you get started.  You will also have the option to go back to school, be it college or trade schools.  There are grants that may be available based on your situation.  Stay out of trouble.  Often the mud in our lives at least for me, was trouble with the law.  I had to not only make a life change and live it, I had to literally change my life, embracing, and enjoying my transformation into a being a productive member of society.

Balance The Scales

You have decided to live a better life, done playing games and giving up.  Now comes the hard part.  You created a plan; school, professional help, volunteering etc.  Now you must move forward with your plan.  It may take you an exceptionally long time to start seeing any fruits.  It took me nearly 10 years from the time I was in jail to working as a professional career counselor.  Biggest keys to my success was staying out of trouble and education. I earned two degrees and currently working on a doctorate.

Stay The Course

I was turned down by everyone. I would receive job offers on a regular basis only to be turned down after the background check. Often it is a waiting game. But you do not want to wait and do nothing. While you wait start balancing those scales through education, good service and staying out of trouble.

Get Involved

Get involved in positive community functions.  Find a church, club, or some type of organization that does good works and join in.  You are connecting yourself with good positive people who may have just the right connections to find you that job.  Volunteer at shelters, food pantries, clean up graffiti, pick up trash; just start doing good all over.  Let me tell you these good works will not go unnoticed; you do not need a background check to do good.    

Continue Writing Chapters

All these things I have talked about will start giving you something to write home about.  Listen, everyone loves a good story, but you know what people love more?  A story in which a guy is fucked up and then builds himself up and becomes the hero.  What kind of hero do you want to be?  That is up for you to decide.  Regardless, you will start automatically attracting good things as your story becomes more and more convincing. You are not that fucked up guy anymore but a person of action, change and inspiration.

You can do it, there is hope and your story has just begun!

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I do not think I have ever been more mentally sick due to what I see currently in America.

Why I am done.

I am tired.  For years I have tried to promote social justice and freedom for the American people.  I have never had a huge platform; I am just like you.  Facebook and blogs have been my stage with little to gain.  I wrote a small piece on Facebook describing that the only way the United States can have true unity, peace and healing is through a mass spiritual awakening.  I am done discussing politics and done with most social issues.

Not good for the soul

One may say, Nate, you should continue the good fight!  I would answer, of course I am going to continue the good fight.  However, the fight I will wage will no longer be one that continues to stir opinion and hurt my soul.  I do not think I have ever been more mentally sick due to what I see currently in America.  This is not good for my mental health; it is not good for my personal life.  I will leave it to others to do what they feel in their heart they must do.

I am at a point in which I am going to do the best I can to seek the Kingdom within.  To discover who I am as a human being and maybe through my discovery and actions in life it may be an influence towards the spiritual growth in others.

Search within

I am dedicating myself to a search within.  Jesus said the kingdom of heaven is within.  If this is the case, it would behoove me to only be interested in this kingdom. Why would anyone want to continue a fight of flesh and blood when flesh and blood is not the enemy?  Our enemy is ignorance of our true Selves.  My objective is to know God and make him known.  To become one with the Father as Jesus was one with the Father; this was the prayer off the master.  This is also my prayer. 

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Our faith must be bigger than the price tag.  I understand the economical impact that COVID-19 is having upon America.  Some large business execs want to hurry the pace to bring back society to the way it was just a short while ago.  This of course Is foolish talk as even when the spread ceases people will not forget the pandemic. The handshake may become a thing of the past.  That might not be a bad idea with the world population far exceeding the earth’s natural capacity.  Viruses will become more sophisticated over time.  There is however an answer to this if we allow our faith to be bigger than the price tag. 

Our technology is increasing at an ever-rapid rate.  When our quantum computers combined with artificial intelligence advances to a level in which we can create not only vaccines but cures in days rather than years the worry of dying young will vanish, but world population may still be a problem.  One might feel that cities in the seas, creating cities in places with less population density is an answer. America and the rest of the world must become very serious about colonizing space.  The moon and Mars will be humanities next homes.  Rather than having countries we will have self-governing planets with an alliance for the advancement of humanity into the further most reaches of space. 

Nothing Is Possible When We Lack Faith

None of the above is possible when we lack faith. Humans gravitate to the negative.  What is this negative I speak of?  The love of money, in creates a plethora of evils in our society.  We do not have the faith to resist the temptations and succumb to our love of money protecting what is known as a “good” economy regardless of the human destruction in which it causes.  There are real people today including President Trump who believe we must get back to work now.  Why?  To get the economy moving again.  Some have said that we should even go so far as to sacrifice our lives for the love of money.  The sad truth many of these people are within so called “faith” communities. 

Humanity Needs a Reset

Humanity needs a reset and COVID-19 might just be that reset which humanity needs, right now.  To admit our love of money and to then become free from the fear of lack which is holding us back.  When we worry about things, those things tend to happen in our lives, and this is magnified when billions of people are putting negativity into the world.  We get off on the negativity, we embrace it even when it hurts us.  We feel comfortable in which we give up control. Like having an abusive partner we keep going back from a false sense of control over our lives.

It is time to do some deep soul searching.  To look into the dim mirror of our souls, brave enough to be honest with ourselves and the dark human nature.  Start taking steps by writing down our fears.  “I can’t afford the rent, groceries, healthcare, etc.”  Admit that this scares you, then start to tell yourself you can afford, you can do, you are not fearful!  Embrace the evil negative thought patterns placing themunder your control. We will get though these strange times, it is what we do afterwards which will determine our future for either good or evil.  We can go back to business as usual as slaves or we can create a world of universal Contributionism in which all people share in the richness of all the resources that are available to us.  Along with the material benefits we will receive the most important benefit, peace of mind. 

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Jesus said rightly, “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” (Matthew 19:24, NIV).

If you were to take away any talk of money from the world news the show would be cut from 30 to 10 minutes.  During our current crisis we see the greed of corporations and people stir once again. I need a bail out, you need a bail out, we all need a bail out like contestants on the Oprah show. Get rid of the concept of money as we know it?

I do not know exactly how this would work; maybe we start slowly.  Gradually rip apart the constructs of capitalism and imprison the bankers and CEO’s in which their only mission seems to bankrupt the American people while they feast at banquet.  These institutions must come down for the American people to be free.

Contributionism is a concept in which we each contribute our skills no matter what they are to receive in return the contributions of others.  During these times we have seen firsthand the importance of many who were once considered the least of these.  The store clerks, truck drivers, gas station attendants, delivery drivers and more.  Of course, those within the medical profession while not be counted among the least of these, are performing their calling with heroic efforts.  We have seen that the true least of these is our politicians, lawyers, CEO’s, etc.  These people are not needed in crisis. 

All Are Rich

What if we all shared in what our creator gave us?  What if we could pass through the fiery sword back into the garden of our birth.  A place in which all is equal.  A place in which mankind sinned by eating the fruit of greed, killing Abel and giving birth to original sin, the sin of greed. 

Let us free ourselves from the slave driver named greed.  Rather, coming together as a community of freedom.  A true church if you will; a place without walls held up by the love of our hearts.  The words economy is stricken from our thoughts as we enter the gates of paradise. 

Jesus said rightly, “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” (Matthew 19:24, NIV). 

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Anxiety and the Empath

Similar to PTSD your past life traumatic experiences can be as real as if they happened in this lifetime.

Ongoing anxiety and panic attacks may be a sure sign you are an empath.  An empath is someone who is very intuitive probably on one of your last life if not your last and will soon be a celestial being never to come to earth again.  Your conscious self may not always be thinking of your next stage in your spiritual evolution but your sub-conscious is well aware.  You have also been through a plethora of experiences in your life which allow for you to feel what others can’t.  Similar to PTSD your past life traumatic experiences can be as real as if they happened in this lifetime. 

Your Next Incarnation

The exciting part of this is that you will probably not be enduring another life in this meat sack.  What sucks about this level of transformation is that those who are close to evolving are extremely sensitive.  Many of these people work in the metaphysical and social work field.  The passions of many empaths are to help others as when you transition past humanity you may become a spirit guide to those on the earth.  Becoming a spirit guide is generally the next step after our last human incarnation.  Your sensitivity is a blessing not a curse as despite your pain you are able to ease others.

Many Of You Know What To Do

A warning to all empaths who suffer from anxiety and panic attacks may lead to alcohol and drugs dependence.  When anxiety becomes overwhelming empaths may use substances to kill the pain.  This of course is not always the case as many empaths already know what to do.  Meditation, Yoga, mindfulness, gathering with other like-minded light beings is all beneficial for your spiritual health as an empath.  You may not even know you’re an empath.  You may have always wondered why you have anxiety and panic attacks. Maybe it is time to start find out who you are.         

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The American Way

Bernie Sanders is the only candidate running for president in 2020 that is bold enough to speak the truth.

The American way, is bombs away, as the United States takes another state.  While the country has officially stopped at 50 states there probably should be a couple extra stars on the flag.  I am not just talking about Puerto Rico.  Let me just name a few; Iraq, Pakistan, Iran, Libya, Venezuela, Honduras and Yemen.  If you need freedom we can dish it.  Even liberals are afraid to mention the atrocities in which the United States has committed.  Vietnam is probably one of the worst with the Korean War and all of the battles in the Middle East coming in second and third.  Generally these war mongers are Republicans.  They cry about abortions, kids smoking pot and having a beer; but have no problem giving them a gun; bastards. 

Bernie Sanders is the only candidate running for president in 2020 that is bold enough to speak the truth.  Why?  That is what the American people want to hear.  Americans want to be heard by the government.  We do not feel heard by Trump or even when Obama was president.  Most presidents govern based on their own bias.  The only bias Bernie has is the people.  He has fought for people his whole life and yes, he said learning how to read is a good thing.  Really, Castro taught kids how to read?  Yes while our schools lack funding.  Let’s not forget how many British were killed during our revolution.  The world is not full of roses, but truth is truth.

The Country is Not Just Supporting Bernie Sanders.

The country is not just supporting Bernie Sanders.  The country is supporting freedom.  People who desire freedom from slave owners which are the corporations and big businesses running the current government.  Damn right the American people are tired. We will stand up against our rights being infringed upon; the places we are forced to live and the wages we are given for our work.  We are tired of being ripped off. The voices of the people are rising and the world hears us!        

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