We have all heard phrase “I do not know what I want to be when I grow up.” I am sure you also have said this on more than one occasion. I know up until recently I have. I have also heard people as old as 60+ still trying to figure out what they want to be. It is interesting that we as a society put so much emphasis on what we are going to be, generally referring to an occupation. Our occupations seem to define yet we are never happy. We put on a costume every day and act out a role. I do not care if you work at McDonald’s or you are a medical doctor, it is a role you play.
If you are lucky enough to achieve the “dream job” you have always wanted, you probably will not be 100% satisfied. You may still not know if this is you. You may take on the professional roles such as an attorney, medical doctor, business manager etc. You say I am a doctor or lawyer or truck driver. Yes, you do those roles but is that really you? I would argue that it is not you; rather, it is a role you play in society in order to make money so you can feed yourself. We are trained this way since early childhood. The sole purpose around our education system is to grow up and be something you are really not. We are all a bunch of liars.
When going to our perspective places of work, we all put on a show. We are then watched by HR who is the biggest liars; who make sure we are lying correctly. Don’t say this, don’t do that, don’t be you. Who are you? We do not know because we were never trained to be (add your name). We were trained to be an occupation. We live in a matrix like environment in which we must submit to societal norms or be cast out like a leper ending up in a homeless shelter. Generally your only crime was you were just being yourself, or at least enough of yourself not to care about what society says you should be.
We all need to eat, and while I have met many happy people who enjoy the homeless lifestyle it is not for everyone. I myself was homeless for a short period of time and it did have its moments of freedom. Although the luxuries of life were often missed; missed so much in fact that I decided to join back in with the matrix and learn a gig. I am very fortunate that I have started to grow in my spirituality which has led me to a greater understanding of myself and the conclusions that I have stated above.
I am learning that my life’s purpose is to just be me. I am not a writer, student, counselor, teacher etc. I may do those things, but they are just actions that I do to make money in order to feed myself. I was most truly myself at the time of my birth, untainted by the corruption of our humanity. We are tainted by our educational, monetary and government systems into being ego driven sociopaths only looking out for a ourselves. What is worse we do not even know who we are. Today we have a growing number of people who suffer with depression and anxiety than ever before. We have an alarming amount of people succumb to suicide. We believe we must work 30+years then retire and die. Sadly most never learn who they really are.
Just be. That’s it. Just be. I do not expect anything out of you other than you just being you. Seek within. Jesus said the Kingdom of heaven s within. Within is found our true and highest self. A self that has been clothed with the world we live in. When taking path less traveled you must go through stages of disrobing. We then are left naked with our egos brought down and nailed upon the cross. We have returned to the state of our birth. A sense of freedom comes from taking of the layers of deceit. Removing the worldly clothes from our ego can be frightening as we will eventually view ourselves for who we truly are.
There are many steps a person can take towards understanding who they truly are. They can be found in the religions of the world as well as various occult orders. We may learn in gradually becoming curious of this unknown world within. This by the way is what happened to me. Once a conservative seminary student with aspirations of the pastorate; I realized I was learning many great truths but the organized Christianity I was a part of was not Christian at all. I let go of what I thought, I wanted to just be! I am a perfect spirit and so are you! Just be. Let go. You have found your purpose. In fact you never lost it. Your purpose is to be you. Now live you and don’t look back!