Hope in the Wilderness

Opportunity is key in escaping difficult realities. Sometimes we must create our own opportunities and struggle with all we have until we emerge.

Felon, Homeless, Addict etc.

I have talked with hundreds of people who feel they are stuck walking in quicksand sinking deeper and deeper.  Stop, are you going to continue walking until the odds of escaping the mud are next to none?  Or, are you going to look for opportunities to escape?  Opportunity is key in escaping difficult realities.  Sometimes we must create our own opportunities and struggle with all we have until we emerge. You can find opportunity regardless of your situation.

Many of us who have a less than desirable past feel guilty and ashamed of our actions and the labels of felon, addict, homeless etc.  These are very real emotions as they are real labels that society feels are acceptable to lay upon us.  From the very start of your journey into a new life you must fight the system.  How do you fight the system?

Ask For Help

There are numerous agencies be it Goodwill’s and other non-profits that have programs to help you get started.  You will also have the option to go back to school, be it college or trade schools.  There are grants that may be available based on your situation.  Stay out of trouble.  Often the mud in our lives at least for me, was trouble with the law.  I had to not only make a life change and live it, I had to literally change my life, embracing, and enjoying my transformation into a being a productive member of society.

Balance The Scales

You have decided to live a better life, done playing games and giving up.  Now comes the hard part.  You created a plan; school, professional help, volunteering etc.  Now you must move forward with your plan.  It may take you an exceptionally long time to start seeing any fruits.  It took me nearly 10 years from the time I was in jail to working as a professional career counselor.  Biggest keys to my success was staying out of trouble and education. I earned two degrees and currently working on a doctorate.

Stay The Course

I was turned down by everyone. I would receive job offers on a regular basis only to be turned down after the background check. Often it is a waiting game. But you do not want to wait and do nothing. While you wait start balancing those scales through education, good service and staying out of trouble.

Get Involved

Get involved in positive community functions.  Find a church, club, or some type of organization that does good works and join in.  You are connecting yourself with good positive people who may have just the right connections to find you that job.  Volunteer at shelters, food pantries, clean up graffiti, pick up trash; just start doing good all over.  Let me tell you these good works will not go unnoticed; you do not need a background check to do good.    

Continue Writing Chapters

All these things I have talked about will start giving you something to write home about.  Listen, everyone loves a good story, but you know what people love more?  A story in which a guy is fucked up and then builds himself up and becomes the hero.  What kind of hero do you want to be?  That is up for you to decide.  Regardless, you will start automatically attracting good things as your story becomes more and more convincing. You are not that fucked up guy anymore but a person of action, change and inspiration.

You can do it, there is hope and your story has just begun!

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Dying Without Hope

Do not look at anything outside of yourself to know yourself.

We are all looking for a sense of meaning the motivations which drive us through life.  Living lives unhindered by ego.  With purpose is realized we are carried away, the Universe moving us forward.  The dying man is lost without hope.  He has never truly seen himself; this shame, this calamity impacts billions of earth’s citizens.  You say, “I do not want to die suffering from a life never lived.”   

Where do I start?  Start with you.  Do not look at anything outside of yourself to know yourself.  The master said “The Kingdom of heaven is within.”  There is no great sage that has ever spoken of the attainment of self-knowledge from outside sources.  There is great value in objective learning; it is the foundation.  It is what you do with the raw knowledge; our goal being transmutation into gold, the high goal of alchemy. You can read every self-help book available and all you are going to do is take up space without real seeking. 

Attainment Is Not Easy

Attainment of your purpose is not easy, you may have some idea.  As you step closer towards self-knowledge the mirror hiding your true self becomes clearer.  Often people start with a practice of meditation combined with yogic breathing techniques helping the subconscious become more open to the conscious.  Ritual exercises help stimulate faith in the work as doubt will be your greatest enemy.  Keeping a journal of your daily activities will help you stay disciplined in your work. This will give you a record of your progress building your faith in the work. Be brave enough to realize the unhindered dream of your childhood.  It is all a matter of faith.

Do not worry about profession; it is about who you are.  Being able to accept yourself as a divine being; your job is something you do to eat.  Faith is the key.  Without faith you will never move mountains.  You will never find your true self.  Build your faith with the practices mentioned above.  You will slowly step out unto the water and not sink.  You will be content with full acceptance of your divine nature.  Nothing will be impossible for you as your will is the same as the universe.  Now you know who you are. 

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Accepting Change

We know then life is not forever, watching parents become older, not their young selves remembered from the eyes of a child.

Change is the constant.  What you can always count on is change.  Change is the moving force of humanity.  Without change we would not have moved from hunter gatherer tribal nomads to living in cities having everything we need to survive minutes away.  From newborn to old age, change in the constant motion driving us from cradle to grave. 

Humans resist change understandably, becoming accustomed with lifestyles, occupations and even our human body.  We dread reaching the age 40, 50 and 60.  Those years come with the body starting to break down.  We know then life is not forever, watching parents become older, not their young selves remembered from the eyes of a child.  Children no more we are not, death is knocking knowing as they are so we shall be. 

Acceptance to Change

Acceptance to change is a desired response in order to lubricate the emotions which long to resist.  We can bring peace to our minds, learn, grow and become teachers to the youth.  Changes in all its forms are not bad.  In fact, change is a necessary component to our spiritual growth.  Without change we will stay infants well into our old age.  Or simply without change we would not exist in the first place.  Stop resisting change and allow your stress to be eliminated.  It is the unknowns of change that leave us paralyzed with fear.  Instead of moving forward into the great unknown we stay in a desperate mode of survival in which we can never win.   

Ride the wave of change.  Stop regretting and stressing, instead move with the universe follow the path of the fool into the unknown.  There is only reason to fear if you are resisting what must be.  Allow change to be your friend working together towards a better future for yourself and others.  Accept your life for what it is; embrace the change you make in yourself as well as the change that you face.  You have made it this far, you will always make it.               

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Finding Your Purpose

We put on a costume every day and act out a role. I do not care if you work at McDonald’s or you are a medical doctor, it is a role you play.

We have all heard phrase “I do not know what I want to be when I grow up.”  I am sure you also have said this on more than one occasion.  I know up until recently I have.  I have also heard people as old as 60+ still trying to figure out what they want to be.  It is interesting that we as a society put so much emphasis on what we are going to be, generally referring to an occupation.  Our occupations seem to define yet we are never happy.  We put on a costume every day and act out a role.  I do not care if you work at McDonald’s or you are a medical doctor, it is a role you play. 

If you are lucky enough to achieve the “dream job” you have always wanted, you probably will not be 100% satisfied.  You may still not know if this is you.  You may take on the professional roles such as an attorney, medical doctor, business manager etc.  You say I am a doctor or lawyer or truck driver.  Yes, you do those roles but is that really you?  I would argue that it is not you; rather, it is a role you play in society in order to make money so you can feed yourself.  We are trained this way since early childhood.  The sole purpose around our education system is to grow up and be something you are really not.  We are all a bunch of liars. 

When going to our perspective places of work, we all put on a show.  We are then watched by HR who is the biggest liars; who make sure we are lying correctly.  Don’t say this, don’t do that, don’t be you.  Who are you?  We do not know because we were never trained to be (add your name).  We were trained to be an occupation.  We live in a matrix like environment in which we must submit to societal norms or be cast out like a leper ending up in a homeless shelter.  Generally your only crime was you were just being yourself, or at least enough of yourself not to care about what society says you should be. 

We all need to eat, and while I have met many happy people who enjoy the homeless lifestyle it is not for everyone.  I myself was homeless for a short period of time and it did have its moments of freedom.  Although the luxuries of life were often missed; missed so much in fact that I decided to join back in with the matrix and learn a gig.  I am very fortunate that I have started to grow in my spirituality which has led me to a greater understanding of myself and the conclusions that I have stated above.

I am learning that my life’s purpose is to just be me. I am not a writer, student, counselor, teacher etc. I may do those things, but they are just actions that I do to make money in order to feed myself. I was most truly myself at the time of my birth, untainted by the corruption of our humanity.  We are tainted by our educational, monetary and government systems into being ego driven sociopaths only looking out for a ourselves.  What is worse we do not even know who we are.  Today we have a growing number of people who suffer with depression and anxiety than ever before.  We have an alarming amount of people succumb to suicide.  We believe we must work 30+years then retire and die.  Sadly most never learn who they really are. 

Just be.  That’s it. Just be.  I do not expect anything out of you other than you just being you.  Seek within.  Jesus said the Kingdom of heaven s within.  Within is found our true and highest self.  A self that has been clothed with the world we live in. When taking path less traveled you must go through stages of disrobing.  We then are left naked with our egos brought down and nailed upon the cross. We have returned to the state of our birth. A sense of freedom comes from taking of the layers of deceit.  Removing the worldly clothes from our ego can be frightening as we will eventually view ourselves for who we truly are.

There are many steps a person can take towards understanding who they truly are.  They can be found in the religions of the world as well as various occult orders.  We may learn in gradually becoming curious of this unknown world within.  This by the way is what happened to me.  Once a conservative seminary student with aspirations of the pastorate; I realized I was learning many great truths but the organized Christianity I was a part of was not Christian at all.  I let go of what I thought, I wanted to just be! I am a perfect spirit and so are you!  Just be.  Let go.  You have found your purpose.  In fact you never lost it.  Your purpose is to be you.  Now live you and don’t look back!                      

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