I do not think I have ever been more mentally sick due to what I see currently in America.
Why I am done.
I am tired. For years I have tried to promote social justice and freedom for the American people. I have never had a huge platform; I am just like you. Facebook and blogs have been my stage with little to gain. I wrote a small piece on Facebook describing that the only way the United States can have true unity, peace and healing is through a mass spiritual awakening. I am done discussing politics and done with most social issues.
Not good for the soul
One may say, Nate, you should continue the good fight! I would answer, of course I am going to continue the good fight. However, the fight I will wage will no longer be one that continues to stir opinion and hurt my soul. I do not think I have ever been more mentally sick due to what I see currently in America. This is not good for my mental health; it is not good for my personal life. I will leave it to others to do what they feel in their heart they must do.
I am at a point in which I am going to do the best I can to seek the Kingdom within. To discover who I am as a human being and maybe through my discovery and actions in life it may be an influence towards the spiritual growth in others.
I am dedicating myself to a search within. Jesus said the kingdom of heaven is within. If this is the case, it would behoove me to only be interested in this kingdom. Why would anyone want to continue a fight of flesh and blood when flesh and blood is not the enemy? Our enemy is ignorance of our true Selves. My objective is to know God and make him known. To become one with the Father as Jesus was one with the Father; this was the prayer off the master. This is also my prayer.
People throughout history have also used religions to define their purpose. Trapped on this planet in the middle of space, early man developed religion as a panacea of sorts to explain why we are here. If God or Gods have contacted humanity it was still mankind who developed the system of worship around the Gods. Within Christianity, the Biblical text spells out how the religion was formed. Jesus did not form the church. Jesus did tell his followers to go about and spread the good news. However, this good news of love and peace has become a heavy burden to the majority of Christianity.
Religion is not Complex Enough for Humanity.
Is religion worth it? No, I would say it is not. It is within human nature to seek for the divine, but to formulate religions on dogmas and doctrines in which we think we know the will of God has caused nothing but harm. To have faith in God and a spiritual practice is not the same as an organized religion. Spirituality is following ones will. Ones will is their purpose and we are all spiritual. One’s path is not the same as another as each path is as unique as a fingerprint. To develop a system focusing on the human and his or her purpose in life is leaving humans wanting as no system is great enough to handle the unique nature of man.
Do Not Give Up on Your Faith.
If you agree but still love your faith good. I would never want someone to disown their faith, rather I would say let us build upon our spiritual nature within the framework of our faith, adding modifications when needed. Live by love, do no harm, seek peace and care for one another. Know that everyone is different and that is ok, that is how God made them. Understand that variety is the spice of life and you do not know the answers. Love, and be love, that is the only way.
Let us forget everything that we think we know about Christianity. In fact, let us forget Christianity. Let us only explore the possibility of working with Jesus.
Many of you may work with spirit guides, angels and other entities. Because of the bad name in in which Christianity has received working with the deity Jesus is often ignored. Let’s just say a great number of people are greatly misunderstood; and rightly so, about Christianity. Jesus did not start a religion; man did. It is man that has ruined working with the most loving deity in existence. Let me ask you to take another look at Jesus . walk through the most profound initiation experiences of your life.
Jesus is here for you. His sole purpose of his incarnation is to make himself known in physical form to better relate to humanity. In reciprocal manner humanity is then better equipped to communicate with the divine. Jesus said of humanity, “That all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me.” (John 12:21, NIV). Jesus prayed for you to pray with him. Jesus desired for you to work with him. Let us forget everything that we think we know about Christianity. In fact, let us forget Christianity. Let us only explore the possibility of working with Jesus.
Jesus is more than a spirit guide although one could view him in a similar light. Spirit guides cannot someone legions of angels, cast out demons and heal the sick. “Do you think I cannot call on my Father, and he will at once put at my disposal more than 12 legions of angels?” (Matthew 26:53, NIV). “The demons begged Jesus, “If you drive us out, send us into a heard of pigs.” (Matthew 8:31, NIV). “She said to herself, “If only I touch his cloak, I will be healed.” (Matthew 9:21, NIV). These above verses are just a few examples of the workings of Jesus in which he performed while walking in the flesh. These and more are found in the New Testament text. So, what about you? What can I do with this?
“Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.” (John 14:12-14, NIV).
The above scripture is the key words needed to build your faith. Of course, working with Jesus means accepting him. Working with Jesus will probably not make you rich and allow you to summon angels and command demons for fun. Working with Jesus is taking on the authority of Jesus and through faith taking upon his essence. This is not for the weak. In fact, I must warn you this path leads to death. Death is a scary thing as we generally do not remember our past lives. Jesus took this initiatory walk himself leading him to death on the cross then through the power of the Father was brought back to life. This is a common theme in most mystery schools. Death and rebirth are apart of life, it is apart of our eternal life. If you choose you can walk the path of Jesus in order to help humanity and yourself at the same time.
Let us remember not to think of church in the traditional sense. Instead let us think of the world as church and every human being as its members. To begin working with Jesus we must believe. This is the same process when working with any spirits, angels or entities. You must believe to receive. You communicate with the Father as Jesus did. You may also think of the Father as the Universal Great Spirit. It is easy to understand how a religion is built up around Jesus. But do not bother with that.
Jesus went through three degrees of initiation much like Freemasonry and other mystery schools. His first grade was his baptism by his initiator John the Baptist. Jesus was submerged in water and then submerged in the Spirit. His second initiation was the 40 days of meditation and temptation in the wilderness. Through this grade Jesus was able to control his ego and become what many would term in the magickal world an adept. Jesus then as an adept performed his work as described in the 4 New Testament Gospels. The third and last grade was the most difficult and one that most of us will take many lifetimes to achieve. Jesus crossed the abyss. Jesus was crucified, buried and after 3 days was risen. This act is emulated in many mystery schools. Through his resurrection Jesus became a magus and upon his ascension an Ipsissimus. This is the grade that is beyond our human comprehension. Jesus being both fully man and God was able to rise through the grades in 3 years. A normal spirit such as ours would take thousands of years if not eternity.
There are many paths in which humanity has worked with Jesus. A working in which mortal man becomes godlike taking on the abilities of the deity. What is known as the Christian church was once apart of the mystery schools which would lead humanity to advance spiritually. Unfortunately, the earliest of Christians known as the Gnostics were condemned by less spiritual but instead power-hungry men. During the middle ages enlightened priest and monks wrote grimoires and taught the secrets of the Gnostics risking their lives to spread the true gospel. Freemasonry was formed, Rosicrucianism and the Golden Dawn. Today there are magickal orders such as Ordo Templi Orientis and the A.*.A.*. Of course there are many others, many have find their own path guided by Jesus to reach great heights of spirituality. One could take a book such as the Bible and through prayer, meditation, faith and good works do as Jesus did. To become God. To be one in the Father. This is not taught in your orthodox churches. Todays churches and governments only want this ability to work with Jesus for themselves. Of course, they are not really working with Jesus. Rather using the principals without the good works. They are antichrist.
You however can now take the first steps towards working with Jesus. Call upon his name. Pray, medicate and seek a teacher. Read as much scripture as possible. Not just the Bible but teachings written by great sages throughout human history. The writings of Aleister Crowley is a good start. Remember do not rush anything. Love your neighbor as yourself. Everything after that will come to those who wait.